[In reflex, Armin scrunches up his nose just slightly when Steven mentions fucking Jack. It's not the fact that he is fucking men that is a distaste to Armin, just that it is Jack. And he doesn't even realise he is doing it. His face just has a tendency to be very expressive.
He has plenty of thoughts about what Steven is saying, but honestly, it's all jumbled up in his mind. This is not the sort of subject he often talks about. It's not something he has had time to formulate his thoughts on and carefully pick the best and right way of saying things. What he wants to argue is that there are perhaps more ways for Steven to be than fucked up or Jack's normal. That there are more options, but obviously, Jack will only confirm the one that benefits him.
(though if he is really honest, isn't he doing the same thing?)
That Steven is a predator, yes, but forced into it. Like a dog trained to bite rather than one that naturally took to it. And that maybe part of Steven wants to believe it just was inevitable or natural for him because that gives him an out in confronting what he did to survive. That maybe his views of his own morality or better put lack thereof are defensive. That he is, in his own way, trying to protect himself from the memory of what happened to him in Arcadia.
It's too jumbled up though for him to properly get it out. Not without the risk of misspeaking and accidentally offending Steven, which he doesn't want to do. He reaches up, running his fingers through his hair in a short gesture of frustration at his own inability to properly convey his feelings and thoughts.]
I just... I don't really know how to properly put this. I'm sorry. I want to be able to but it's really complicated.
I think what I want to say is that Jack is showing you one way to like yourself, but maybe that isn't the only way. Or the best way in the long term.
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He has plenty of thoughts about what Steven is saying, but honestly, it's all jumbled up in his mind. This is not the sort of subject he often talks about. It's not something he has had time to formulate his thoughts on and carefully pick the best and right way of saying things. What he wants to argue is that there are perhaps more ways for Steven to be than fucked up or Jack's normal. That there are more options, but obviously, Jack will only confirm the one that benefits him.
(though if he is really honest, isn't he doing the same thing?)
That Steven is a predator, yes, but forced into it. Like a dog trained to bite rather than one that naturally took to it. And that maybe part of Steven wants to believe it just was inevitable or natural for him because that gives him an out in confronting what he did to survive. That maybe his views of his own morality or better put lack thereof are defensive. That he is, in his own way, trying to protect himself from the memory of what happened to him in Arcadia.
It's too jumbled up though for him to properly get it out. Not without the risk of misspeaking and accidentally offending Steven, which he doesn't want to do. He reaches up, running his fingers through his hair in a short gesture of frustration at his own inability to properly convey his feelings and thoughts.]
I just... I don't really know how to properly put this. I'm sorry. I want to be able to but it's really complicated.
I think what I want to say is that Jack is showing you one way to like yourself, but maybe that isn't the only way. Or the best way in the long term.