Connie looks up at the stars for a few moments, struggling to put the last part into words. She could recount her heroic deeds and adventures with no problem. But trying to find the words to describe the ennui she felt in Era 3 was way, way more difficult.
"We ended up beating the huge galactic dictator. Got some trauma when my mentor was mind-controlled and nearly killed me. Then she held me hostage so my friend would let the galactic dictator kill him. But, whatever. Had to get over it.
"And then that was... it, for a while. We just had to get on with our lives in the 'fixed' world. I got into high school, immediately started studying for early entrance to college, and...
"You know, when Spinel showed up to destroy the Earth and I heard about it, I was actually excited. That something was actually happening again, that I wasn't adrift in... I don't even know. It felt weird to not be in a story anymore, if that makes any sense? And even there, I was late to the party."
Sounds like a deficit of one of the three pillars.
"Ever since then, I've just been living a normal, human life. And I think I liked it. Returning to normalcy. Even though Steven was slowly tearing himself apart while everyone moved on, it was... I don't know if nice was the word, but it felt like a hole I didn't necessarily want out of my life was getting filled whether I liked it or not.
"Now I'm here, and I'm just looking at that hole, and wondering how much it was healing from trauma, and how much it was accepting... mediocrity isn't the right word, but. Gah. It's hard to articulate. If I came back and remembered everything from here, I don't think I'd be able to keep living like that."
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Connie looks up at the stars for a few moments, struggling to put the last part into words. She could recount her heroic deeds and adventures with no problem. But trying to find the words to describe the ennui she felt in Era 3 was way, way more difficult.
"We ended up beating the huge galactic dictator. Got some trauma when my mentor was mind-controlled and nearly killed me. Then she held me hostage so my friend would let the galactic dictator kill him. But, whatever. Had to get over it.
"And then that was... it, for a while. We just had to get on with our lives in the 'fixed' world. I got into high school, immediately started studying for early entrance to college, and...
"You know, when Spinel showed up to destroy the Earth and I heard about it, I was actually excited. That something was actually happening again, that I wasn't adrift in... I don't even know. It felt weird to not be in a story anymore, if that makes any sense? And even there, I was late to the party."
Sounds like a deficit of one of the three pillars.
"Ever since then, I've just been living a normal, human life. And I think I liked it. Returning to normalcy. Even though Steven was slowly tearing himself apart while everyone moved on, it was... I don't know if nice was the word, but it felt like a hole I didn't necessarily want out of my life was getting filled whether I liked it or not.
"Now I'm here, and I'm just looking at that hole, and wondering how much it was healing from trauma, and how much it was accepting... mediocrity isn't the right word, but. Gah. It's hard to articulate. If I came back and remembered everything from here, I don't think I'd be able to keep living like that."