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victory_road2020-06-06 10:07 pm
cyan_maid) wrote in victory_road2020-06-06 10:07 pm
35th Recipe [Video, Goldenrod City]
You know...I've been wondering something lately. About the Gym Challenge stuff.
[Jane looks like she's about ready to go to bed, honestly - glasses off, pajamas on (though you have to wonder what bacon is actually made of in the Pokemon world), and 'gear angled so you can sort of tell she's kind of lounging in bed, light still on.]
It's more of just an idle sort of thing...thinking about what I'd like to do, here. While I'm here. It could very well turn out I'm here for a long while yet, or I could be gone tomorrow. No matter the case, I want to work towards something, and for the longest time it was just...you assume to yourself, ah, I'll get the badges and challenge the Elite Four. After that, they'll let you open up your own gym, but...what if we did all that, proved ourselves, and did something different?
[She pauses to yawn, covering her mouth.] I mean...originally I definitely wanted to do something like that, but...it feels like defeating the Elite Four is more a test of your own strength, and the strength of your Pokemon - and the strength you have together. In theory, couldn't you do whatever you wished, within reason, once you proved that strength? I guess...I'm just wondering about other options. If we have them.
[Another pause. Jane turns a bit on her side.] Oh, I'm rambling, aren't I? Sorry. I guess I just thought...if I proved myself to be strong, couldn't I go on and do work I've always thought was admirable and exciting? There couldn't be much to hold me back from that, would there? Don't get me wrong, I'd keep working at Pokemon Centers because...that's good work, it's helpful and I've learned so much. But...[She turns back, a bit of steel and fire in her eyes. The good kind, the kind that rings true of determination.] What's to stop me from, say, becoming a detective?
[Huh. That's...that's a thing.]
...I guess I wanted to put that into the world and see how it sounded. I'm still thinking on it. And even if I do go that way, I've still got a lot of badges left to earn, so...maybe I'm getting ahead of myself.
[Jane looks like she's about ready to go to bed, honestly - glasses off, pajamas on (though you have to wonder what bacon is actually made of in the Pokemon world), and 'gear angled so you can sort of tell she's kind of lounging in bed, light still on.]
It's more of just an idle sort of thing...thinking about what I'd like to do, here. While I'm here. It could very well turn out I'm here for a long while yet, or I could be gone tomorrow. No matter the case, I want to work towards something, and for the longest time it was just...you assume to yourself, ah, I'll get the badges and challenge the Elite Four. After that, they'll let you open up your own gym, but...what if we did all that, proved ourselves, and did something different?
[She pauses to yawn, covering her mouth.] I mean...originally I definitely wanted to do something like that, but...it feels like defeating the Elite Four is more a test of your own strength, and the strength of your Pokemon - and the strength you have together. In theory, couldn't you do whatever you wished, within reason, once you proved that strength? I guess...I'm just wondering about other options. If we have them.
[Another pause. Jane turns a bit on her side.] Oh, I'm rambling, aren't I? Sorry. I guess I just thought...if I proved myself to be strong, couldn't I go on and do work I've always thought was admirable and exciting? There couldn't be much to hold me back from that, would there? Don't get me wrong, I'd keep working at Pokemon Centers because...that's good work, it's helpful and I've learned so much. But...[She turns back, a bit of steel and fire in her eyes. The good kind, the kind that rings true of determination.] What's to stop me from, say, becoming a detective?
[Huh. That's...that's a thing.]
...I guess I wanted to put that into the world and see how it sounded. I'm still thinking on it. And even if I do go that way, I've still got a lot of badges left to earn, so...maybe I'm getting ahead of myself.
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Well, at least you were honest. Thanks for that.
I mean it.
Knowing what to expect is something, at least. Nothing I can do about it either way, and I'm nothing if not an expert at this waiting thing by now.
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Holding back, being purposefully imprecise, or simply deflecting are all strategies that would have achieved roughly the same result here.
As for what you'd get out of it, I have some guesses. We aren't always on the same page, or even holding the same book. I do what I can, but I'm not so deluded as to think that's nearly enough.
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[Not only are they holding different books, they are on completely different ends of the metaphorical library.]
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You're trying to live here.
It's not a bad thing; I built you that dollhouse for a reason. But we have a fundamentally different approach to pretty much everything, and that's just the way it is.
[If this was the real Jane Crocker, that would be a different story. She'd want a bigger slice of the Poké-pie, for starters. But this is what I have to work with. I don't like it, but I don't hate her for it the way I did.
It's more complicated now than I wanted.]
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It's either try to live here or sit and mope around about things I can't change. And I'm sure you understand the idea that moping stinks.
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Now that would be downright out of character.
[I almost keep going. I almost say it.
'Speaking of moping,' I would have continued, using this as a segue to remind her about John.
But I don't.
Not this time.]
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Well, if it were a constant thing, then it would be, I suppose. But it's not like you haven't seen me being an outright Debbie Downer in the past. I will admit to it.
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You're a smart, proactive young lady, possessed of an indominable will and a good head on her shoulders. Good-looking, too.
You couldn't keep moping even if you wanted to. And why the fuck would you want to?
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