[That last admittance seems to catch Jean's attention in particular. One, for the fact that Erwin even had hopes that he would survive into retirement, and two, that he had something of a plan for that time. Jean had never thought of such for himself, he quickly realized. Ever since he took up in the Survey Corps, he expected to spend his life in service and die before retirement was possible. He gave up his dreams of domestic life when he spurned the position in the Police he had so rightly earned.]

...Did you ever think that was really going to happen? That you'd ever get to retire? When we rode to Shiganshina, did you really think you'd come back from it?

Team Levi... We were all that survived. Just us and Commander Hange. Everyone else was either in the suicide charge or got blown away by the Colossal Titan's explosion. All I had that they didn't was luck. Can you blame me for never letting myself think past that?