Nah.... I was just remembering.... I tried to be a leader back home, but it didn't always go the way I wanted it to. I wanted to be different than my rival, but ... at least once I wasn't ... and I hurt someone I really cared about.

[He doesn't mention that Kalin had hurt him every day by rejecting his attempts to be friendly. He has since learned things were not as he had believed with Kalin.]