That is probably for the better, honestly. It's a future I can't do anything about and it will happen no matter what I do here and it's not as if I could change anything if I kept that knowledge if ever I were returned. [Hard to do when you're basically stuck in a kind of purgatory, right?]

A reason it's been on my mind... Maybe it's because I do have the time to settle down a bit and get things in order? That my mind will actually let me think on it instead of pushing it off to the side for everything else in front of me...