Well, in my case where I have felt similar, it is due to my own self hatred, but I cannot say if that is the same for you.

[Going to elaborate on that, Dimitri - ok no we are moving right along]

Still, perhaps if you view things in such a way, it may help push you a little more forward to dealing with your own feelings. Think of yourself as a friend - as me, or anyone else who may fight similar battles.