[These are all things he logically knows, and he turns his head so that he's looking to Min instead of directly into his knees. If he knows it's true then he should be able to just say Min's right! So, why don't the words come out?]

No, it's definitely stupid. Like...even the fact that we're here right now, doing this? I'm supposed to be better about this kind of thing now. I don't want to keep being like this, but here I am, doing it again over something that isn't even that big a deal.

[He isn't just upset about whatever's bothering him anymore. It's snowballed, because he couldn't just get over himself and now he's disappointed in himself and ashamed. But...with Min by his side, there's really no getting around it. And he's not lying - he does want to be more honest with Min overall. It was just...hard this time.

So...he takes a deep breath. Then, he puts his face right back in his knees and mutters.]

I reeeeeally wanted to do the contest. But of course, you know. Classic Ryan, missed the fucking deadline. Obviously.

[When it happened, Ryan had waved it off. He gave an awkward laugh and jumped right to pointing out that well, there'll be more contests and then to just supporting Min-Gi as much as he could. Reactions that all felt like objectively Correct Answers in how to react, but all skipped right past how Ryan actually felt about the situation.]