Evie hops in his lap and starts to purr. Purring cats are supposed to have healing properties. Perhaps purring Eevees do too.
Radley ponders the problem: all that they were shown, what those things meant ... what might need to be done. He ponders how he himself dealt with the problem with his grandmother.
"I think ... you have to get to where you're not so desperate for a father figure that you latch on to anyone who might be able to fill that role?" he says at last. "You have to get to where you can stand on your own without that, because it's a problem that's stifling and hurting you, to say the least. You have to focus on yourself, and on the ones you have who do care about you.
"And I know that's easier said than done. I had a situation like that with my grandmother. I always wanted her to love me ... even just to like me. Nothing I ever did was good enough, but I kept trying. I tried for years to be what she wanted me to be. There's still a part of me that hopes someday she'll care about me. But ... I had to move past that, to be my own person ... even if that meant being someone she'll never love. I had to accept that she probably never will feel that way about me. I'm still not happy about it. I still wish it would be different. But I don't let those feelings dictate how I live my life."
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Radley ponders the problem: all that they were shown, what those things meant ... what might need to be done. He ponders how he himself dealt with the problem with his grandmother.
"I think ... you have to get to where you're not so desperate for a father figure that you latch on to anyone who might be able to fill that role?" he says at last. "You have to get to where you can stand on your own without that, because it's a problem that's stifling and hurting you, to say the least. You have to focus on yourself, and on the ones you have who do care about you.
"And I know that's easier said than done. I had a situation like that with my grandmother. I always wanted her to love me ... even just to like me. Nothing I ever did was good enough, but I kept trying. I tried for years to be what she wanted me to be. There's still a part of me that hopes someday she'll care about me. But ... I had to move past that, to be my own person ... even if that meant being someone she'll never love. I had to accept that she probably never will feel that way about me. I'm still not happy about it. I still wish it would be different. But I don't let those feelings dictate how I live my life."