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[notmyrealname]

[Anyone paying attention to the 'gear will first be treated to a view of the water. There's no land in sight, just crisp, clear water as far as the eye can see. The 'gear turns after a second and a dock comes into view where Cissnei's is seated with a large, rather upset looking Goodra.

Said dragon has her head resting on Cissnei's lap, soft cries escaping her every now and then. The Turk is quiet for a moment as she strokes the Pokemon's head looking rather upset herself.]

I'm not sure how many people were familiar with him but a dear friend of mine has gone home.

[Looking up, Cissnei smiles though it's a sad one.]

Some of Haurchefant's Pokemon appeared in my PC this morning and I've heard enough to know that's what it means.

[The Goodra whimpers softly and nuzzles closer to Cissnei leaving a sticky mess that the young woman doesn't seem to mind.]

I just thought it'd be a good idea to let anyone that knew him know.

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[11121_assumption]

I have lost friends of mine as well. Both times, it deeply hurt.

[ Aka, Walter doesn't know how to say 'I'm sorry your friend disappeared' ]

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[notmyrealname]

I honestly didn't think it would hurt this much but I guess that shows how much I know.

It's not the worse loss I've felt but it's up there.

[11121_assumption]

I never imagined it would hurt like this either. I inherited some of their Pokemon as well.


I'm worried that I do not treat them correctly. I know they will not be as happy with me as they were before, but...I don't want them to be deely unhappy.

[notmyrealname]

Likewise. I've found myself with four new Pokemon that are all pretty upset. It's going to make things a bit more challenging over the next few days.


I have a similar worry. I'm not

I'm not him. And I can't be him. I just hope I can give them what they need.

[11121_assumption]

I recently inherited three Pokemon. I had returned from Bell Tower when one descended upon me. She made me realise what had happened.

Two of them I had given to her, as gifts. She had given me some of my Pokemon. When she was here.

[ A second message came after a pause ]

She had understood. And now she's gone.

[notmyrealname]

I'm so sorry, Walter.

It sounds like she meant quite a bit to you.

[11121_assumption]

She did.

I don't know if I ever made that clear to her. Or to Asriel, before he left.

The person who left was very important to you, too

[notmyrealname]

I'm sure they knew.

And he was.

More than he probably knew. I've never been good at telling others how I feel most of the time.

[11121_assumption]

I am not good at that either.

[ There's a pause before he sends another message ]

I'm not used to having people who I don't want to lose.

[notmyrealname]

It's a rather strange sensation,
isn't it?

I was never use to it either until I met someone back home that changed the way I looked at things.

Prior to meeting them, I was pretty indifferent.

[11121_assumption]

I never had anyone in my world.

I don't...know how I feel about it. It was easier, when there was nothing to lose. But having people is. It's better than being alone.

[notmyrealname]

Being alone takes its toll on you after awhile.

So does having people around.

It's a lose/lose situation in a way..but I think I'd rather lose than not have people.

[11121_assumption]

I've never known a situation where I 'win'. So...in that sense, it's just a different set of conditions. But the company is nice. Until it's gone.

[notmyrealname]

I'd say you're well on your way to winning here, Walter. You have a wonderful team and people that care about you.

[11121_assumption]

Until those people leave. And it doesn't change what I have done before I came here. I don't deserve this.

[notmyrealname]

Everyone's done things they regret or they feel make them unworthy.

That doesn't mean you don't deserve a second chance. A chance to be happy.

[11121_assumption]

The things I've done are unforgivable.

[notmyrealname]

According to who?

[11121_assumption]

Many people.

I don't want to say what it was, that I had done.

[notmyrealname]

And you don't have to, Walter.

But second chances are something even people that are supposedly the worst deserve. This world isn't the world you come from; you have a chance to do things differently now.

We all do. We can let out past selves be just that: the past.

[11121_assumption]

My past will find me. It has found me here.

I cannot deny what I am. What I have done or will do. And there are people here who know what I am.

[notmyrealname]

So?

You don't have to deny what you are but you don't have to let it completely define you, Walter.

Everyone has the capacity to change.

[11121_assumption]

I want to change. But I don't know if I can. He'll still find me here.

[notmyrealname]

Who will?

[11121_assumption]

The angel Valtiel. He has found me here before.

[notmyrealname]

But he didn't keep his hold on you did he?

[11121_assumption]

No. Not yet. In my world, he was always there. Here...I'm.

I'm worried about what he might do. He would not need long.

[notmyrealname]

I don't think your Pokemon would let him harm you if they can help it.

Neither would I.

[11121_assumption]

It's what he would have me do.

If he comes, do not come near me. Please.

[notmyrealname]

Unfortunately I can't promise that, Walter.

[11121_assumption]

I don't want to hurt you.

[notmyrealname]

You won't.

I've faced worse.

[11121_assumption]

I don't know if you have. I cannot be killed, or stopped, with Valtiel.

[notmyrealname]

I'm always up for a challenge.

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[paladinlost]

I'm sorry for your loss. He seemed to be a very pleasant person and friend, the few times we spoke.

[Which were admittedly few.]

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[notmyrealname]

He never seemed to be in a bad mood, I will give him that.

[Cissnei offers a sad smile to the video.]

It always made talking to him pleasant.

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[paladinlost]

Friends with such temperaments are to be treasured, as long as they can be by our side.

[Cecil's own smile is equally sad, especially when his eyes settle on the Goodra.]

How are the rest of his Pokémon taking the loss?

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[notmyrealname]

[Speaking as someone who's deal with this personally, aren't you, Cecil?]

They're doing as well as can be expected. Three of the four are extremely distressed--

[She rests a hand on the Goodra's head.]

--one is trying to keep up appearances.

[Video]

[paladinlost]

The eldest, I would guess, trying to reassure the younger ones. Or perhaps that expectation merely worsens the distress?

[It can go either way, he knows.]

[Video]

[notmyrealname]

I'm not entirely sure. All I really know about them thus far is that I now have two mated pairs and that this lovely lady--

[She pets the Goodra again.]

--was his original partner.

[Video]

[paladinlost]

It's good that neither pair were separated, though that is but a slim silver lining compared to their losses. ...But the pain will lessen in intensity with time. I can promise that much.

[Video]

[notmyrealname]

I am very glad for that. And I hope it does...I suppose I should be better at dealing with this sort of thing by now but it really doesn't get any easier.

[Video]

[paladinlost]

I would love to tell you it does, but this year's losses hurt just as much as the earliest. Though I find that the necessity of caring for an ever larger team helps the pain fade more swiftly.

[Video]

[notmyrealname]

[She can't help but smile softly.]

I hadn't thought about that. I suppose it'll help distract me. Keep me from getting too swallowed up in sadness about Haruchefant being gone.

[Video]

[paladinlost]

Most Pokémon are surprisingly good at seeing through our attempt to hide our pain. If their care itself does not sufficiently distract you, they'll do it on purpose.

[Video]

[notmyrealname]

They really are amazingly intelligent creatures.

[Video]

[paladinlost]

Much closer to people than pets, no matter how some treat them. In fact, sometimes I think they understand our feelings better than some humans I've known.

[Video]

[notmyrealname]

I'd have to agree with that.