It wouldn't have been smarter if it meant you got away.

[Not to him, anyway. To him, someone else's survival would always take priority. The good of everyone else being above his own well-being. It's just how he is. Just how he's been for as long as he can remember.]

[So yes. He did have to. Or he might have stayed alive, and then couldn't live with himself.]

I did -- as far as I knew back then... Matt and his father were still somewhere in wherever we were. [If he remembered them existing at all back then.] I didn't have a say in it, no.

But I ran. I... remember that now.