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Meant for Allura (backdated to freaky friday)

So. Say you find out something a little unexpected and then, by the time you've figured out how to deal with that, you find out something else that kind of conflicts with the first thing.

[Hunk, that's not even a question.]

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[Keith would have to bring logic into this, wouldn't he?]

That would make sense, wouldn't it?

hunk.

look
if you don't want to talk to me about what's bothering you, i get it
talk later i guess

[oh.]

I mean.
I don't not want to talk to you about it.
But I also don't want you to feel like you have to try and help with what is probably an incredibly dumb problem.

[It's incredibly dumb, Keith. He's being dumb and overthinking.]

Then again, you'd probably be more likely to tell me if I'm being dumb.

hunk. you're babbling
whatever it is i'm pretty sure it can't be as bad as you think it is

Okay, well I found out about Pidge and Lance shortly after I woke up here. [Because Lance had blurted out that he was getting married, with absolutely no prompting.]

So y'know. I figured that was that. But then I talked to Pidge and she told me that the three of us were apparently a thing before.

So now I have no idea what to think or how to feel about any of it because I don't have any memory of being here before. And that's kind of huge.

So I wanted to talk to Allura about it.

[No big deal.]

But if she's busy we can totally do something else.

[Please, Keith. Take the easy way out.]

[ Oh. Oh fuck.

It's a good thing this conversation is happening over text because this way Hunk can't watch Keith take in a deep breath and let it go slowly. ]

they told you that?!
why would they tell you that?!?

[ Ok. That probably doesn't help anything. Just regrouping for Hunk's sake. ]

it's a lot, yeah.
you uh ... wanting to pick things up where they left off or something?

In Pidge's defense, we were already talking about things that had happened the last time I was here, and I pretty much told her that she should tell me if there was something I should know.

[Granted, that was legitimately the last thing Hunk had been expecting. But here we are.]

And I mean. Maybe?

It wouldn't just be "picking things up where they left off" for me, though, since I can't remember the last time I was here.

[It'd honestly be more like Hunk trying to flail his way into something they already have going, and he isn't even sure if the potential trouble would be worth it.]

So uh. Yea. I was hoping Allura might be able to help.

[ And as much as he would sincerely love to delegate this to Allura, asking her to be thinking about Lance's relationships given their history isn't exactly the most fun thing for her to be dealing with. He sighs, thinking out a response. ]

honestly i didn't know you felt that way about either of them

[ Obviously the potential for it was there considering how things had been with Hunk before he left and came back, but he didn't know those feelings existed prior to Johto. ]

i don't know exactly how you feel but i know it's weird to show up here and find out all your friends have been here for over a year and have been living their lives without you. it was like that for me too.
i don't know if you're feeling this way right now, but truthfully when i first got here i felt pretty left out. shiro, pidge, lance and the other hunk. they all had this shared history of their time here and were all doing their own thing. everything felt different, even though they assured me everything was still the same.
i think you have to try and figure out for yourself if how you feel is coming from not wanting to be left behind or because you really want to be with them

Honestly I didn't know I felt that way until very recently.

[Like just-before-the-trip-back-to-Earth recently.]

And that's pretty much it. I get here and find out all of you have been here for a while, except I'd just seen all of you before I woke up here. You and Allura. Pidge and Lance.

[Everyone is either conveniently paired off or sad about no longer being paired off... and then there's Hunk. The odd one out.]

I was going to use the trip back to Earth to try and figure out what I wanted to say to them about it. But pretty much everything is different here, so I guess it's for the best that I never did figure it out.

[Pidge had even said they'd still be there for him no matter what. He didn't really think much about it at the time, but now that Keith's said something, the way he's feeling actually makes a lot of sense. And it sucks.]

Maybe a bit of both? I'd just figured out I might like them both then, but they're not even the same people anymore because they've been here forever.

I dunno man. It's completely dumb and I feel dumb.

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Hunk appreciates Keith so much lmao

he's trying....!!

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