TEXT - backdated to the evening of 6/30 (cw: sibling death)

[fingersandteeth]

You would think that knowing for sure would make things better but it doesn't really.

It doesn't matter that she's got some good wraith friends or that Old Man Tsukiyomi's original is summoning her shade on the regular or that she doesn't blame me or that she knows now that goddamn piece of shit Fetch wasn't me.

She should be twenty-six twenty-seven something like that goddamn fairy time bullshit the point is that she's never going to be that old she's always going to be twenty-five right now twenty-five and dead.

You would have thought it would be good to see her over the weekend and it was but she's gone now and it's her birthday and everything hurts.

No matter how much I smoke Lydia it still hurts.

Fuck.

[Turns out you don't need an ion storm for what you thought were private messages getting sent to the network if you're intoxicated enough.]

Comments

[fingersandteeth]

I realize that now Tyler but fine you're probably right ugh.

Private for Steven's sake

[asmywitness]

Don't take it as me saying you're not allowed to be upset. You are, and I get it. It sucks when reminders that someone you love isn't there get thrown back in your face. I came out of the Hedge a few days before my boyfriend's birthday.

And I'm not saying you can't talk to people. Just. Set it up when you're sober, if you can. You know?

Forever private

[fingersandteeth]

Yes I know.

I'm sorry I've been very fail tonight do you want to meet us here and get drunk later Melissa is coming and also Lydia it can be a work thing.

[asmywitness]

I'm not going to retroactively pretend that you wanting people to drink with because you're fucking depressed is a work thing, man. Just accept that emotions are hard and yours hurt right now, and you want to get plastered. There's nothing wrong with that.

Definitely private

[fingersandteeth]

If we all work for the same people when the day is done it's sort of like a work thing we all have the same sweater if you know what I mean.

But it's true I do want to get all of the rest of the way obliterated.

just. so private

[asmywitness]

I don't know what San Francisco is like, but even in Australia typically getting black-out shitfaced is not a work thing.

[....unless you're in a really derro area.]

Like I'm coming over, just to clarify, but stop trying to make it a work thing, I guess? We are friends, that you met through work, who you want over for a piss-up.

Re: just. so private

[fingersandteeth]

San Diego not San Francisco they're on entirely different ends of California Tyler.

But fine it's not a work thing.

[asmywitness]

I'd like to see you name two cities in one Australian state. :P

[fingersandteeth]

I honestly couldn't I know the names but not which state they're in so fine I guess you win.

[asmywitness]

[you don't know he's being smug right now]

I'll be there soon. Call it half an hour.

[fingersandteeth]

Okay sure.