[closed] March Catch All

[nastyboy]

Who: Team Femblemtroika (Grant, Chip, Dimitri, Sylvain, Claude, Felix, Jinx, Razor, Ashe, Annette, Lysithea - with people going in and out as they please)
What: Please let this group just fall asleep in Olivine for a while with nothing exploding, they beg you
When: March
Where: The Olivine City general area
Rating: T

Comments

[bestswordmaster]

Ugh. Regrets are pointless, I hate them. Not like I can change anything, what's the use? Can't wait to get this damn funeral over with so I can move on already.

[Felix closes his eyes when first Dimitri's lips and then his gentle hands do their work, leaning back against him as much as he can without obstructing his rinsing.]

Believe what you want. I shouldn't be agonizing over it anyway. I'm acting like a child.

[And yet he can't get his mind off the subject, or stop the words from coming out. His mind just feels so tired and foggy, and his limbs feel weak and useless.]

Satisfied...was I satisfied? I suppose so. No thanks to him and his stupid letters. I didn't even always answer them. Even though...I sort of wanted to. I did and I didn't.

...you told him a lot of nice things about someone who was so cruel to you. You're too soft for your own good, you know. Just means I have to work harder to protect you.

[nastyboy]

I agreed with you, on that which you were cruel to me about.

[Sometimes, he still agrees. It's a part in the back of his head, something separate from the numerous voices that have haunted him for so long...]

So in that vein... I could look past how cruel you were to me. I still watched you, after all, and I wanted you to be happy.

...I still want you to be happy. Sometimes, that means acting like a child, because I think we are all allowed that, at least a little bit. And regret isn't something that is solely in the domain of children, either.

It is simply... something that we cannot help but feel. Something that we always wonder, no matter what.

I think... all we can do is try to strive better.

[Another soft welcome of water along Felix's scalp.]

And we will stay with you as you do so.