[This...this is too much. Zuke covered his face and it was a few more moments before he came up with a response.
He didn't want to be slick. He didn't want to hide his face from him. But, if he knew now, surely...he'd feel different about Zuke. His traveling group, most of them, knew each other for a while. And Grant? Grant and Dimitri were that close like that. Surely. For all of the nice things they said to him, it wasn't the same. He knew now he was developing feelings for Dimitri, and Grant, and Claude. He saw himself with either of them and felt he could be happy.
But even if they made this polyamory work, it was so complicated for them.
Zuke would just complicate it further. There was no place for him. There couldn't be. He couldn't be the man Nadia deserved, so-]
No, it's helpful. It gave me a lot to think about. Sounds like you're happy, and you worked hard to have it that way.
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He didn't want to be slick. He didn't want to hide his face from him. But, if he knew now, surely...he'd feel different about Zuke. His traveling group, most of them, knew each other for a while. And Grant? Grant and Dimitri were that close like that. Surely. For all of the nice things they said to him, it wasn't the same. He knew now he was developing feelings for Dimitri, and Grant, and Claude. He saw himself with either of them and felt he could be happy.
But even if they made this polyamory work, it was so complicated for them.
Zuke would just complicate it further. There was no place for him. There couldn't be. He couldn't be the man Nadia deserved, so-]
No, it's helpful. It gave me a lot to think about. Sounds like you're happy, and you worked hard to have it that way.