two: text

[drubbings]

1 H4V3 S3CUR3D 4NOTH3R POK3B3AST
TH4NK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT 4LL YOU WHO SCHOOL3D M3 ON TH3 1MPORT4NC3 OF C4TCH1NG MOR3 POK3MON
1T H4S B33N 3NL1GHT3N1NG 4ND 1 C4UGHT 4 C4WB34ST
SH3 1S FL4WL3SS 4ND NO ON3 W1LL 3V3R B34T H3R
4LTHOUGH SH3 1S 4 L1TTL3 SK1TT1SH 4ND H1D3S
W3LL WORK ON TH4T
4NYW4Y TH1S M3MO H4S 4 PO1NT B3S1D3S TH3 BR4GG1NG!
1T H4S COM3 TO MY 4TT3NT1ON TH4T 1 4M HOP3L3SS OUTSTR1P3D BY MY FR13NDS 1N T3RMS OF POK3MAST3RDOM
SO WH4T 1 PROPOS3 1S TH1S: 1M GO1NG TO T4K3 MY B4D S3LF ON 4 JOURN3Y
DO TH1S TH1NG PROP3RLY 4S 4 R34L TR41N3R WOULD
(th1s h4s b33n k3pt 4 s3cr3t you c4n und3rst4nd why 1f youv3 3v3r m3t k4rk4t)
1 W1LL GO FOR THR33 MONTHS 4ND R1GOROUSLY TR41N FOR TH3 DUR4T1ON
1T W1LL B3 TH3 BOMB >:]
SO 1 PUT FORTH TH1S QU3ST1ON F3LLOW POK3M4ST3RS
WOULD 4NYONE L1KE TO T4K3 TH1S JOURN3Y W1TH M3?
1 COM3 W1TH TWO POK3B34STS
4 GR34T S3NS3 OF HUMOR
4ND SOM3 W31RD R3D H41R
PL34SE R3PLY 4S4P TO TH1S!

Comments

private

[drubbings]

[ There's radio silence for a good half hour. Terezi is sitting outside, staring blankly at her gear, not really knowing what to say. Finally she picks it up and starts typing. ]

YOU R34LLY TH1NK TH4T
YOUR3 NOT PULL1NG MY FROND?


[ Not that she thinks Dave would ever do that. She just can't believe that she is being forgiven so quickly. She was sure that Dave had been quietly resentful in his cool kid way. This might be the first time they've actually seen each other for real. ]

1 R43LLY C4NT B3L13V3 1 L3T H1M S1NK H1S F1LTHY JUGG4LO CL4WS 1NTO M3
1 K3PT W4NT1NG TO PROV3 1 W4S B3TT3R TH4N H1M
BUT H3 D1DNT C4R3
1T D1DNT M4TT3R TO H1M HOW M4NY T1M3S 1 WON
1T W4S TH3 S4M3 SM1RK1NG BULLS1HT F4C3
4ND 1 L3T 3V3RYTH1NG 3LS3 F4LL TO TH3 S1D3
1 KNOW HUM4NS C4NT UND3RST4ND WH4T 1TS L1K3 TO H4T3 SOM3ON3 L1K3 TH4T
BUT
1T W4S NOT R1GHT D4V3
NOT N4TUR4L
1 SHOULD H4V3 SL1T H1S SWOLL3N PUSS BLO4T3D THRO4T 4ND STOOD BY YOU
W3 4LL WOULD H4V3 B33N B3TT3R OFF 1N TH3 3ND

private

[callbacks]

[But he didn't care.

Somehow, that re-frames it all for Dave--not that he feels differently about the asshole, not that what she's saying isn't in line with how he's been understanding the whole Gamzee situation, but suddenly, he understands in his chest as well as his skull.

He knows what but he didn't care feels like. Better than anything else he knows, he knows that.]

humans can feel a whole host of wildly fucking different things

[The heavy, frayed, impossible knot tied around the man he called Bro, the weight that never goes away: Dave doesn't know if he can call that hate, not really, but it, too, wasn't right. He gets that, now, thanks to Ashley. Dirk. Karkat.]

i may not have ever been in hate with a shitclown or understand what that relationship shouldve looked like
and if i had maybe i wouldve fought harder to help you i dont know
but i do know one thing
you couldve stood by me or whatever but i think even my less emotionally uncrippled past self would agree
that wed be happier if from now on
the one you make sure to stand by is you
and im here for whatever you need to make that stand easier on yourself because goddamn im tired of losing

private

[drubbings]

[ This is what she was trying to tell her past self. Something she knew all along but hadn't actually been able to implement. She'd like to think she was strong enough to be herself after this whole ordeal. Through Vriska, through having her eyes healed, and through Gamzee, through SGRUB. It seemed to be mistake after mistake. But like John said, this wasn't their world and it's another chance. ]

YOUR3 R1GHT
YOU 4R3 SO R1GHT
1V3 H4V3NT B33N MYS3LF S1NC3 VR1SK4
1T H4D TO B3 DON3 BUT 1 R3GR3T3D 1T
1 WOND3R HOW TH1NGS WOULD H4V3 B33N 1F 1 H4DNT STOPP3D H3R
M4YB3 MY PR3D1C1T1ON W4S WRONG
1NST34D OF 4 H4PPY W1N 4LL W3 GOT W4S JUST TR4G3DY


[ .... ]

1M SORRY
TH4TS NOT WH4T 1 M34NT TO T4LK 4BOUT
TH1S 1S 4LL 4BOUT M3
4ND 1 W1SH 1T W3R3NT BUT 1T 1S
BUT
PL34S3 K33P TH1S FOR YOUR 3Y3S ONLY!
B31NG VULN3R4BL3 M4K3S M3 W4NT TO 3MPTY MY 4C1D S4C
1TS SO GROSS

private

[callbacks]

come on terezi do you really think id one
violate the bro code like that
or two
violate the bro code like that on YOU
who the hell do you think i am
either way id be some enormous goddamn lumbering hypocrite if i in any way deprived you of the like
safe and supportive opportunities to learn shit about yourself personally that ive been able to have here
obviously
youre not the only one who was in a fucked up place back then
i really am sorry tz

private

[drubbings]

1 DONT KNOW
1M JUST COV3R1NG 4LL MY B4S3S 1N C4S3 1T COM3S UP 1N 4 J4M W1TH K4RK4T!
M4YB3 SOM3D4Y 1LL T3LL H1M
BUT 1T WONT B3 TOD4Y

L3TS JUST S4Y 1TS 4LL W4T3R UND3R TH3 3L3V4T3D W4LK PL4TFORM
W3 4R3 OFF1C14LLY FR33 FROM 4LL THE FUCK TH4T W4S SGRUB
W3 SHOULD ST4RT 4CT1NG L1K3 1T
YOUR3 ST1LL TH3 COOL3ST K1D 1N MY SN1FFSTUB STR1D3R
STUNT3D 3MOT1ONS 4ND 4LL >:]