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[tearsofademon]

[On this mild first afternoon of November, the feed opens to a porch, where a Clefairy, who can usually be seen wearing a rose ear clip but today is wearing a whole bouquet of roses arranged in a flower crown, is seated on a table, eating dango to her heart's content.

There are multiple empty boxes next to her, and more on the other side that haven't been touched. Where does she put it all, the world may never know. She'll probably be here a while, though.

From behind the camera, though, Ryner starts talking.]

...You know, since it's been seven years today and all, I should probably have some kind of inspirational speech prepared about how far we've come or something. But I dunno, I'm not really any good at that stuff. So I don't really have one, sorry.

I guess what I will say, though, is, ahh... I don't regret it, being here. And if a even a useless guy like me can do enough to make Rose happy, and the others...

[The Clefairy, finishing her latest stick of dango, blinks at the camera before sweetly giving it the most adorable smile she can muster.]

Even if it all changes tomorrow, if I can do this much right now... Maybe that's enough. You know?

...Ahh, sorry, I'm probably not making much sense, huh. I'm way behind on sleep... But I guess what I'm saying is, I don't know what tomorrow will bring, and if you told me I could choose where I'd be tomorrow, I don't know what I'd decide...

...But I'm glad I'm here today.

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[dreamsofahero]

......

*yeah, it takes a little bit before he says anything*

What do you want me to say, Ryner? I'm tired of it. Of that corrupt world. Even if I can change it, I can't bring back what's already gone...

*there's almost definitely a suspiciously watery look to his eyes, or at least what corners can be seen of them*

[tearsofademon]

What do you want me to say, Sion? That I'm okay with the thought of you wanting to die??

[...yup, that was definitely a tear.]

[dreamsofahero]

That's why I didn't want to say anything.

*because he knew that knowing would hurt Ryner*

[tearsofademon]

[It's a little late for that now.

...is what he doesn't say.]

...What am I supposed to do?

[dreamsofahero]

I don't know...


... It's not your fault.

[tearsofademon]

[He makes a kind of non-committal noise at that.

Whether or not he's going to blame himself anyway - not for Sion having these thoughts, but for not being a good enough friend to be able to help him not have them - he doesn't say.]

[dreamsofahero]

*he better not, Sion has been deliberately hiding this from him, after all...

after a few moments of silence, he speaks up again*

... I don't want to leave you, either, Ryner, but...

*but he still feels the way he feels, he can't explain why, but there it is*

[tearsofademon]

[It's another minute or so before Ryner manages to speak again.]

...I just... I want to help you. But I don't know how, and...

[and he can't help but wonder if this is yet another thing he screwed up by being so lazy throughout his life

if he'd been a little more proactive, would he have figured out what to do by now?]

[dreamsofahero]

Maybe there's some things no one can help.

*that's... certainly how it feels to Sion, much of the time*

[tearsofademon]

So I'm supposed to just do what I've always done, ignore it and do nothing?

[no edge to it, just... exhaustion, a little bit of despondency]

[dreamsofahero]

*he says nothing for quite a while. What can he say to that? Sion doesn't even know himself... after all, how could Ryner help when Sion isn't even sure what he wants, other than a dull but deeply aching desire for everything to be over?

but finally, after several moments pass, he does manage to say one thing softly*

... You're here with me. That's something.

*it might not change how Sion feels about certain matters... but at least it means he isn't alone*

[tearsofademon]

...Well, that much I've got no intention of changing, at least.

[dreamsofahero]

I'm sorry, Ryner.

*he... really doesn't know what else to say, okay?*

[tearsofademon]

You're not the one who should be apologizing.

[gosh, the notebook in his hands is so interesting right now]

[dreamsofahero]

It's not your fault, Ryner.

*if anything, it's probably Sion's. Somehow.*

[tearsofademon]

It's not your fault either, Sion. It's...

[how to even...]

...if anything, it's our world's fault.

[dreamsofahero]

...

Maybe...

[tearsofademon]

[...he doesn't really have much to add, so]

[dreamsofahero]

*he doesn't really have much to say, either, though obviously he's still... not exactly happy about any of this. to put it extremely mildly. and the worst part is...*

......

*... he just doesn't know what to do. though to judge by the faint trembling in his shoulders, he's definitely upset*

[tearsofademon]

[It would be so much easier to just fall asleep right now. Not deal with it. Leave it for later. Half of his instincts, finely honed for the majority of his life, want nothing more than to do that.

But that won't do anything but make things worse, really. He's so tired of making things worse.

(...And this might do that anyway, but hey, Sion keeps trying to get him to take initiative, right?)

Quietly, he stands up and walks over to where Sion is sitting, and just. Lays a tentative hand on Sion's shoulder.

He has no idea what he's doing, he has no idea what to do, but being physically present... can't hurt, at least, right?]

[dreamsofahero]

*well, Sion doesn't pull away, at least, nor does he try to shoo Ryner away. Oh, he might have tensed slightly reflexively, since he's not exactly used to physical affection, but he relaxes again pretty much immediately.

... from this close though, even with Sion's downcast gaze, it's probably evident that yes, those probably are tears threatening to form in the corners of his eyes*

[tearsofademon]

[:(]

...

[He opens his mouth briefly to say something, but closes it, not knowing what to say that wouldn't be useless at best, more likely actively making things worse again.]

[dreamsofahero]

*that's fine; if anything, his physical presence is probably more noteworthy than anything.

That, or Sion just reached a point where he can't hold it back anymore, to judge by the slight trembling in his shoulder*

[tearsofademon]

[...yeah he's going to continue to awkwardly stand here, not knowing what to do but hoping that physically being here is at least something]

[dreamsofahero]

*well, it's something? Sion's not really in any state to comment... though if Ryner continues to stand there, hand on his shoulder like that, eventually it's evident Sion really is crying. Quietly, as if still trying to resist and suppress it, but there it is*