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victory_road2018-01-10 09:30 pm
shiro2hero) wrote in victory_road2018-01-10 09:30 pm
we're halfway there~!
Who: The Residents of Second Chance Island & Friends
Where: The Sevii Islands
When: January
Summary: A catch-all log for shenanigans of meeting new people or anything else.
Rating: MOSTLY G -- but with added PG13/R for Krieg
Welcome to the Sevii Islands. Or, one of them, anyway. It looks a little like this, with a house a few hundred yards back from the actual beach. Flowers everywhere. A porch on the house... it's extremely peaceful.
Except for the Voltorbs rolling around. And the flexing Incineroars. A couple Aggron. Spheals rolling and bouncing in the water. There may even occasionally be a whale pokemon or two out in the water.
So yes. It's peaceful.
As long as you like Pokemon.
[ Here's an open log for anything you need in the month of January on the Island of Trauma, aka: second chance island. Tag around, toplevel, whatever, have a party! Train pokemon, go fishing, bum around the house Jean and Armin rented, just to keep things organized in one place. ]
Where: The Sevii Islands
When: January
Summary: A catch-all log for shenanigans of meeting new people or anything else.
Rating: MOSTLY G -- but with added PG13/R for Krieg
Welcome to the Sevii Islands. Or, one of them, anyway. It looks a little like this, with a house a few hundred yards back from the actual beach. Flowers everywhere. A porch on the house... it's extremely peaceful.
Except for the Voltorbs rolling around. And the flexing Incineroars. A couple Aggron. Spheals rolling and bouncing in the water. There may even occasionally be a whale pokemon or two out in the water.
So yes. It's peaceful.
As long as you like Pokemon.
[ Here's an open log for anything you need in the month of January on the Island of Trauma, aka: second chance island. Tag around, toplevel, whatever, have a party! Train pokemon, go fishing, bum around the house Jean and Armin rented, just to keep things organized in one place. ]
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[With a jingle collar.]
[A tiny Meowth who is doing her best to leap up onto her muscle cat role models' shoulders as they mob Krieg.]
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Keeping an eye on the little one to make sure it doesn't get hurt while also participating in a four-way free-for-all is going to be a challenge, but Krieg will do his best!]
Bring on the bad times!!
[That's directed at the big cats, naturally, and the three of them are eager to deliver. They bring on the bad times at full-force, as requested, and the wrestling match is on!
...Though it probably won't last very long. Once the small Darumaka accompanying Krieg makes its concern known, the wrestle reunion will have to be postponed.
They've got a minute or two before the little guy gathers his courage to protest, though.]
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[A small feline friend who immediately perks her ears at the Darumaka. And hops down to give it a few curious sniffs.]
[Who are you??]
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So while he's not nearly as withdrawn as he once was, he still hasn't got the hang of interacting with strangers, human or pokemon, although pokemon are a little easier. And smaller pokemon, more his size (such as a Meowth), are easier than larger ones. He tolerates the Meowth's curious sniffs mostly because his attention is strongly focused on watching Krieg and the three big muscley pokemon with steadily growing alarm. He glances at the Meowth with his only eye when she asks who he is before returning his gaze to the concerning scene before him, and doesn't answer.]
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[But that also means she's going to reach over and gently pat at the round little pokemon with a paw. It's not a Scratch attack. It's just a pat. Curious. Testing. Can you hear her, strange round friend? Because, of course, Zen Doll is immediately her friend.]
[She even punctuates that pat with a little chirruping sound.]
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He's still far too worried about what Krieg is up to to give her any more attention than that. Those big cats are so violent and there are more of them than Krieg. There's no way Krieg isn't going to get hurt! He just got better from being hurt! Dolly has to help him, somehow!
Courage gathered, he lets out a loud, distressed cry and waddles closer to the scary combat, as if there were anything he could do at his puny level 15 against these level 100 beasts. Still, he has to try.
S-stop that! Leave him alone! Don't hurt him!!]
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[At least until Dolly gets up. Her ears perk, and she trots after him.]
[Oh no! No, he should not get so close to the fighting! He's small, like her. He should keep back. And the bigger cats don't seem to hear him yet! She bounds up after him, pacing in the sand around him.]
[And adds her own yowl to the mix. Something that sounds more at home from a concerned Siamese cat than a Meowth.]
[... one muscle cat stops what she's doing, popping her head up.]
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TIME OUT!
[Magellan's already launched into a devastating elbow drop by the time Krieg manages to shout, so that also lands, and knocks the wind out of him in the process. The two extra rowdy Incineroars do take Krieg's call to heart, though, and all violent wrestling activity ceases while Krieg coughs some air back into his lungs. Dolly uses the opportunity to waddle-run the rest of the way to Krieg's side, smashes his face into the crook of Krieg's neck and shoulder, and hunches there trembling.]
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[She's loud enough to where her trainer ends up poking his head out of the nearest house window to see what in the world is going on.]
... Krieg?
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Krieg's basically caught his breath by the time Shiro appears, so when he does, he laughs.]
Mnahahaha! Hey, Sugar!
[Break time is over, time to roll over and get up...which he does, carefully scooping the still trembling Dolly up into his arms as he goes.
And then he notices Luna.]
...Did you get a new cat?
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[This is a totally normal occurrence after all. Krieg showing up and getting dogpiled -- catpiled? -- by a bunch of wrestling cats is nothing new. It's sort of reassuring! To see nothing's changed there.]
[Luna's ears perk, and she bounds across the sand, hopping up on the windowsil. And, then, her trainer's shoulders, purring.]
I did -- Jean and Armin gave her to me. I don't think she's got a competitive streak in her... so...
Say hi to my first pet?
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[Perfectly, 100% normal. Except it upset Krieg's new friend...The little guy's only now just stopped trembling, and he's still clinging tight to Krieg's neck.]
That's the kind that likes coins, right?
[He's seen a Meowth before - Tim has one, because of course he does. This one's a lot smaller than Tim's, and it has a cute little jingle bell collar. Also, it obviously adores Shiro - look at her, hamming it up on his shoulders. Freaking adorable.]
She's a good look for you!
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[His own Incineroar has flopped down in the shade by the house, pretending she's way too cool for the brothers' new wrestling match. Because that's a very Cat Thing to do.]
She brings them home, yeah. Still can't figure out how.
[While Shiro somehow manages to keep a straight face as the kitten bats at his bangs.]
I like your new friend too. He doing all right?
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His smile doesn't last long, though. His grin fades and his whole demeanor changes when Shiro asks if Dolly's doing alright, from amused to chagrined.]
...He was. I think the fight scared him.
[And he feels like absolute shit about that. It hadn't even occurred to him that the four-way wrestle match might upset the traumatized 'Mon. He always seems fine when Krieg spars with his own team...]
I didn't think. I should've.
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[Good going metal arm.]
Hey, we all have moments where we don't think like we should. It's all right.
[It's also easy to see how much Krieg regrets it. That says a lot. For the guy who used to casually scream the most random collections of words Shiro ever heard to now be worried about not thinking...]
You realized, right? That something was wrong. And you tried to fix it. That counts for a lot.
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Kyaaa, Shiro-sempai, so cool~Shiro, Krieg will still scream random collections of words if given the right provocation. It's just that the number of provocations are very limited here in Pokeland, and, in fact, seem to be decreasing...
Weird.]
Mnngh.
[He sees your point, Shiro, he does. But.]
Shouldn't've happened at all.
[He relaxes his bracing hand against Dolly's back, to see if the little guy will unstick himself from the crook of his neck and allow Krieg to hold him normally, and is rewarded with the prickling of little claws tightening their grip. So that's a no.]
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It's efficiency!!][Okay, but his point is, the screaming has decreased. Let him be proud of you Krieg. Just accept it -- it was bound to happen at some point.]
This is the part where I tell you everyone makes mistakes.
[He's smiling, but it's sad. Sympathetic. Watching the way the little pokemon stays clinging to Krieg.]
But I also know... hearing that doesn't always help. You're doing the best you can to make up for it though.
I think that's what matters, here.
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He sees Shiro's sympathetic smile, and he actually has to look away. Sympathy's for people who deserve it, not for someone like him.]
Can't undo it, can't go back, can't change it, there's nothing to make up. Nothing's how it was and it won't ever be that way again. The meat man wouldn't listen and now she won't come home.
[Somehow the subject of his objection changed mid-ramble. That hasn't happened in a while.]
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[Yeah, he gets the sense something else is happening here. The little Pokemon probably the icing on the cake, so to speak.]
Krieg, what happened?
[Even as he asks, he sort of wonders if this is the kind of thing their big buddy can talk about. But he has to ask.]
This sure took an unexpected turn
He hasn't told anyone what had happened during the weekend where their powers returned, not even Gaige. But Gaige knows him, and she knows Angel, and she's a smart girl who can add two and two together without his help.
He doesn't want to tell anyone. What he did was shameful, and unforgivable. But Shiro asked, and the guilt that's been eating him from the inside out slams out past the unstable barrier between his mind and his mouth, and his traitorous tongue lays him bare.]
She was so scared. I didn't know why! She wanted to be left alone, but how could I keep her safe if she was alone? She begged me to leave, but I couldn't. I couldn't! And then the stars vanished and there was only the sublime agony of a thousand, thousand needles, and the world was only pain for one beautiful, shining, perfect moment before the end, and everything went black and silent, smothered by blood and bile.
She cried and I didn't hear it. I hurt her and I didn't see it. She still cries and she still hurts and I can't! Take! It back!
[His volume begins to rise toward the end of his rant, but doesn't go nearly as loud as he might have if he didn't still have a small Darumaka pressed basically against his throat.
...Look at that, decreased screaming, just like Shiro was saying.]
trauma island strikes again
[And... this isn't a situation where you can say something like "talk to her, tell her you wanted to protect her". Because this is Krieg. This is Krieg and in that nightmare world, it made sense why he is the way he is.]
You were trying to protect her. Weren't you?
[That, he can understand. Trying to protect someone. Ending up with hurting them. With something you can never take back.]
Krieg, I'm not going to pretend I know what exactly you went through -- you and... her, both. But.
You can't take it back, no. But maybe she'll understand why you did what you did. It might not be right away. And... I can't tell you it's going to feel better someday.
But at least, there's a chance she'll understand.
[He shrugs a shoulder, to carefully reach out and, making an effort to keep his movements clear, telegraphed, put a hand on Krieg's arm.] I'm not just saying that.
I've been there.
apparently 8')
[Despite Shiro's deliberate movements, Krieg still twitches, startled, at the hand on his arm. He jerks his head back to look at his friend.
For some reason, Shiro's admission doesn't surprise him, even though it seems like it should. There's a strange feeling, like trying to recall parts of a long-ago dream, coming over him, and it's weirdly comforting.
We have an uncanny amount of bullshit in common.
That...is also weirdly comforting, and almost despite himself he lets go of his anguish to focus on that, instead.]
...Yeah?
go... us
[He drops his hands. Holds them up to show Krieg they're off him entirely. It's okay, buddy, he's not going to touch you.]
[A shake of his head, apologetically.] I know it doesn't. Believe me, I know. But it's something to keep in mind.
[His shoulders twitch, and he spends a long few moments looking back toward the house before he answers.]
Yeah, Krieg. I have.
\;w;/
...And now apparently it's Shiro's turn to look away. Krieg watches him for a moment before dropping his gaze. Seeing his friend looking so vulnerable is uncomfortable.]
Mnn.
[Wow, this sure got awkward.
Meanwhile, Zen Doll has finally managed to stop trembling. He wiggles very slightly in Krieg's grip, just enough to untuck his face from the crook of his neck and press it against the side of his mask instead. When he begins to gently pat at Krieg's mask with one of his little claws, the psycho laughs softly, and then sighs.]
Sorry about the sads.
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[But when Krieg speaks, he looks back at him, shaking his head.]
No, it's fine. Maybe we needed to get it out, you know?
[A nod toward Zen Doll.] How's he doing?
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