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[lordofthefries]

[Excuse the shaky view as Sasha sets the gear up on the floor in front of her, giving the public as large a view of her sitting on the floor by her bed cross-legged. She rubs at her nose a few times, glancing off screen anxiously before she turns back to the 'gear and addresses the public at large.]

How do you make friends? [A pause.] I mean, real people friends, not Pokemon friends.

[Which makes this post a whole lot more pathetic. BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE!]

Like I don't know a lot of stuff because where I'm from we don't even have lights or water on the inside or schools or those car things. Just horses. And mountains. And lots of trees. So a lot of the stuff people talk about here, I never heard of and...

[...she feels too stupid, too much of a hick to bond over familiar things. Growing up people laughed at her for being so backwoods. That's something one doesn't shake off easily.]

But I want friends even though I don't know stuff. I don't mind learning! I... just don't want people to laugh at me about it.

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[forsaintcecilia]

[Kazuki tilts his head as he listens. This sounds less like not being able to relate to others, and more like a self confidence problem.]

Maybe you don't feel like it's cool because it's what's normal to you? I don't think where I'm from is all that "cool" either. I mean, I love it there because it's home, but it's still just an every day kind of place.

[lordofthefries]

[It's a little bit of both which makes this a problem without a clear cut "PRESS X TO SOLVE" solution.]

Normal for me are Titans eating people. [Sheesh, Sasha. At least pretty it up a little.] Nobody ever thinks that's cool.

[forsaintcecilia]

Titans? Wait-- Oh, right. You're from the same world as Jean and Armin. I forgot.

Do you, um... Are you okay there?

[Kazuki got to experience Jean's nightmare back in October. The sight of corpses lying around in the streets caused him to throw up on his shoes. It still gives him the chills sometimes.]

[lordofthefries]

What do you mean by okay?

[She's assuming he means alive, because while everything there is very much not okay, alive was the most anyone could ask for.]

I'm not dead, if that's what you're asking.

[But a lot of her friends are and her village seems to have been cleaned out by Titans and she still doesn't know if her father got eaten or not, so maybe that's no better.]

[forsaintcecilia]

N-no, I mean, like... I saw your world once, in a dream. It was really bad. And Jean and Armin have told me about Titans. Do you have to go through scary things like that too?

[lordofthefries]

Oh.

[She doesn't quite know what he means by seeing it in a dream, but that's not the important part of the conversation, not right now at least.]

Yes. We were all in the military together. That's where I met them.

[forsaintcecilia]

[Kazuki couldn't explain how that happened either, so it's just as well that Sasha didn't ask.]

I'm sorry. I mean, for bringing it up. And that you have to go through that. I don't think I could ever get what that's really like...

But that doesn't mean I think you're uninteresting!