April Catchall [closed]

[nastyboy]

Who: Team Femblemtroika
What: The gang prepares for prom! And presumably the aftermath of getting traumatized by prom!
When:April
Where: Vermillion? Olivine? Wherever will accept this collective mess?

Comments

[vrdantwind]

Are you really? There was a lot there. You're not just, y'know, putting me off and not talking about how you're actually doing? Because when I come back tomorrow, I'm going to come find you and ask again, and if you tell me something different then, you'll have to admit you were lying to me.

But it's a lot easier than you think for people to see how good of a person you really are, and always have been. The way you act when you're so traumatized you can't think straight...that's not really you. Lorenz is as observant as anyone else, and he sees you're kind and thoughtful and supportive of others. Even when he was at his worst, those things were always important to him, and he's able to appreciate them even better now.

[nastyboy]

[Claude, must you call him out like this]

Claude, if I may be frank, I often feel as though I rarely do as well as I or anyone else wishes I could be. I am not lying when I go off my own measurements for how I am doing.

[But you can't respond to every "How are you doing" with "Still kind of experiencing a fraction of a mental breakdown", or at least he feels he can't.]

There is a lot that I have to address with what Lorenz told all of us, and I am still digesting it to some degree.

[vrdantwind]

So what I'm gathering here is, you're "all right" for a very personal and subjective value of all right, and the fact that it's probably not anything close to what I would consider all right is something I'm supposed to politely ignore?

The thing is, Dimitri, you didn't have to tell me you were doing all right at all. You could tell me - well, what you just did. That you're still processing it all. Maybe how you actually feel. That you don't even know what to feel yet. You could tell me anything at all, really. But when I ask how you're doing, I don't just want to be fed a couple words that you know don't mean what I'd want them to mean. I want to actually get a feel for where you're at.

[nastyboy]

[Sometimes, Dimitri wonders if he is perhaps a little bit too honest for his own good at times. Sometimes, he knows that he would never be able to lie to his loved ones without tasting something vile on the back of his tongue.]

If we put a stop to everything just because my "all right" did not match others' "all right", then I would feel guilty. Nothing would get done, and it would distract from other issues we need to focus on while I am already focusing on fixing myself.

It will be fine in the end. It will.